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sinner. by Senju-HiMe

Who are you, beautiful sinner? Lips red as the rose, Skin pale as the moonlight, And eyes as blue as winter, As cool as ice. You deciev...

048. Jenner by Christopher-Manuel

You lived a life of freedom and joy, But then that was all taken away, By man's hand. He used you, Abused you! Yet the animal in you on...


It's been quite a while since I've been active, posting NL chapters and pictures. I'm starting to become like the other deviants who've come here to support art but then became wound up with busy lifestyles like going to college, working full-time/part-time on their jobs. Me? I'm sadly not in college yet because I need to pass a Soars test (it's extremely hard, I'm practicing it on an app on my phone and there's a total of 431 questions. So far that isn't going so hot and if I fail, I may have to pay $300 I think for a redo or something (I sure as fuck aren't working at McDonald's (their food is gross))
Ever since my 1st writer's block (which was from Drew47AT), I've been trying to fix the last chapters of NL but they did not meet up to his satisfactions. I know I can't appeal everyone, but at least I can appeal some people (even nerds). So then I got a note from sharkspotter asking if I was on Facebook or Skype. I joined Skype, but keep having trouble logging in (I have my password saved into my notes thankfully) Then I got wound up with practicing soars, making good BJD molds (the dolls I was making out of cloth turned out really shoty. Even though I put wires in the arms, hands, legs, and feet, they wouldn't stay still. It was a disappointment for me.) and trying to keep the house tidy (my mother sees dust and dirt wherever and it's actually pretty annoying as hell when she says its there and asks someone to clean it.) Another problem is this; I do get enough sleep but when I'm doing my molds for my future dolls, I get distracted with random thoughts and then go on my phone and look at stuff or read it. When I think about it, I feel like lying down and daydreaming about it. I feel tired then. So I walk over to my bed and lay down, cuddling my body pillow, and daydream. But then I pass out. It sucks. I try not to do it, but I let it get the best outta me. It's terrible. I've been trying to keep myself busy, but I kept passing out or just lying there/sitting there and doing nothing but let my thoughts flow all over my head.
A couple days ago, I went to the doctor and had medication for my anxiety given to me (There's history with my test taking. I'll ace assignments, but then I'll bomb on tests. Even if I study, I still do shitty.) So far I haven't had hallucinations, nausea, headaches (I had a little one I felt in my right side, but then it went away), or any crazy shit. I'm hoping this won't endanger me in anyway, it shouldn't. I also learned something about my heart. I have an AV canel (that's in the middle of the heart) with mitral valve insuffiencty/ av canel repair. I got rather nervous at first, but then my doctor told me it's nothing to worry about because only very very very little blood comes out. I still need to be aware of that. Remember when Robin Williams died? I learned people who've had open heart surgery could have depression. I asked my mom about this and she said if the person's health isn't well, then they get depression. The person's health meaning physically. So when that physical performance is lacked, it can eventually lack the brain mentally I think. I think that's how it happens, but I'm fine. I had major heart surgery when I was 6 months old and my heart's been doing fantastic ever since.
I'm feeling normal as usual. I stayed up till 3 in the morning because Hellsing Ultimate is on, yet I'm awake. Fuck, I don't think I know what to do. Soars, dolls, NL story, NL story scenes, NL character studies.
Life is NOT easy, but we just keep pushing through it anyways. That's life and we all need to embrace it that way, even if we hate it.
  • Listening to: Within Temptation nightcore
  • Reading: Nothing
  • Watching: Nothing
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: coffee


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Hey! My name is REN, at least that's the pen name I go by. I have a real name, but I'd prefer to be called Ren, I am 18 years old and, sadly still, living with my parents. (Boo!!! :cries:) I love my friends and sharing my artistic talents with everyone and I hope to make more friends and explore more of life along the way!). I'm an adult rebel who lives in small, cold town Duluth, MN. If you're thinking of living where I come from, then you better change plans because its filled with crazy weather (like the winters that last for almost half a year) and mostly nature. I love to draw and write, I love anime and romance! Unfortunate to say, until I have enough money to move out, I will be going to a community college to study medical laboratory technician for a job as well as my interests so I can become a great well known children's/teens author, dark animated filmmaker and actress (and hopefully attend one of the two best rated colleges in Austin; The Art Institute of Austin and the University of Texas' Theatre Department) (I'm seriously thinking of moving to Austin, TX where the weather's fuckin' sweet and live there.) I'm a creative and artistic yet headstrong cookie with determination in shooting for the stars and someday (not only living the life celebrities do) but living a happy life with a sweet, outgoing and intelligent husband and maybe one or three or even five (adopted) kids. :) (I know! As crazy as it sounds, I'm willing to risk it all and take flight for that second star to the right.)
So far, my sequel to "The Secret of NIMH" (1982) has a mixture of praise and hate in the fandom zone.
1st, there was Drew47AT, who suggested I should really improve my story by changing the plotline and of course have Jonathan Brisby be alive and not dead.
2nd, I recieved a note from 1st-Hashirama-Senju saying someone (a girl/woman named Lyle) from Library of the Damned "stole" (they actaully critiqued my story in sarcastic manner, not constructive) my story and posted it on their site. You can read it from the links below;……

But you know what, I'm not going to give up on that because I'm not only doing this for NIMH fans out there, but I am doing it for Biff (otherwise Elizabeth Hartman, who tragically died of suicide June 10th, 1987). Like my mom and my role model Elijah Wood, I don't give up on shit. I just push through it because that's life. Everyday is an obstacle we have to endure. Suicide will not rescue you from pressure with anything related to the future or reality. (I took Biff's death pretty hard when I was twelve, that's one of the reasons I'm against suicide. It's even worst to know that people around your age and mine are commiting suicide because they feel that intense pressure building up each day.) Watch some epic, empowering animes, sing a song that'll give you the passion to follow your dreams and strengthen your spirit. (That's what I do and it really does help.)
"Dream the impossible because dreams do come true." is Elijah Wood's quote I follow by. He never had it easy with dreams either. In emotional distress, his mom was there to help him push through the thick and thin of balancing life with fame and reality. He's taught his auidence strength and even finding happiness (if you've watched "Wilfred") Even before "Wilfred", his voice guided me back into the light and to find myself. I want to make the impossible possible, and I bet you all want to too. Take this quote and others in mind. Of course, take it seriously, work your ass off and work hard so you can kick ass and make the world a really cool place. I do hope someday to remake the Rats of NIMH (in dedication to the original cast and crew of the original film, if I'm allowed to and if that's legal) and make my sequel into a movie (if I ever do work with animation.) I am most likely planning on working with traditional animation because it is such a beautiful form of animation. Watching traditional animation is just like watching an actual drawing come to life.

Best Friends; :iconanarchygunrage:, :iconmemory627:, :iconbaren777:
Favorite People; :iconkatethegreat19:

Favourite genre of music: Gothic rock, alternative
Favourite style of art: Anime, traditional handdrawn art, cgi

~Quotes To Keep In Mind~
I believe in the impossible, I dreamt of it yesterday. I'm dreaming of it today and I'll dream of it tomorrow. (REN)(June 2014)

Everyday, an old life dies and a new one is born. (REN)

Never give up. I never gave up, Carl never gave up, Kathleen never gave up. Don't you give up. (Colleen Hegleson Nelson (My grandma Nelson)(12/25/2013))

You can't reach for anything new if your hands are full of yesterday's junk. (Louise Smith)

Slumber parties are the cat's pajamas, just like my cat pajamas. (Tina Belcher (Slumber Party from Bob's Burgers))

If you're a nerd, join the herd. (Zeke from Bob's Burgers)

Don't be startin' what ch'ou can't finish, bitch. (Roger Smith from American Dad)

Self-pity is our worst enemy and if we yield it, we can never do anything wise in this world. (Helen Keller)

In the animated world, people who understand pencils and paper usually aren't computer people, and the computer people usually aren't the artistic people, so they always stand on opposite sides of the line. (Don Bluth)

The past is over, the future is waiting! (Liz from IGPX)

There are more valid facts and details in works of artt than there are in history books. (Charlie Chaplin)

Obstacles are only opportunities to succeed or fail; how we handle them determines what will happen. (Art Hurst)

The best and most beautiful things in this world cannot be seen or touched. They must be felt with the heart. (Helen Keller)

I make films to cure my loneliness. (Ana Lily)

As I matured and grew stronger, the bounds of the madness inside me expanded. (Franken Stein from Soul Eater)

I grew up sheltered and dependent. I was a dreamer. I just always wanted to be . . . an actress. I wanted the people I'm playing to be in trouble. (Elizabeth Hartman)

Without pain, there would be no suffering. Without suffering, we would never learn from our mistakes. To make it right, pain and suffering is the key to all windows, without it, there is no way of life. (Angelina Jolie)

Artists are poeple driven by the tension between the desire to communicate and the desire to hide. (D.W. Winnicott)

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juditithil Featured By Owner 1 day ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks girl for the fave! I'm glad you like my photo. Have a nice day!
HeatherFly Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2014  New member Student General Artist
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Dto Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fav! Now if my original stuff where as popularfella thinking ( Reactions ) 
Stitchpunk89 Featured By Owner Sep 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
In a way, your art style reminds me of baren777's
Dto Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I can see the resemblance. Thank you :-D.
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thanks so much for the fave on my FrankenSteinmetz ^_^
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