My deepest apologies to everyone

It's been quite a while since I've been active, posting NL chapters and pictures. I'm starting to become like the other deviants who've come here to support art but then became wound up with busy lifestyles like going to college, working full-time/part-time on their jobs. Me? I'm sadly not in college yet because I need to pass a Soars test (it's extremely hard, I'm practicing it on an app on my phone and there's a total of 431 questions. So far that isn't going so hot and if I fail, I may have to pay $300 I think for a redo or something (I sure as fuck aren't working at McDonald's (their food is gross))
Ever since my 1st writer's block (which was from Drew47AT), I've been trying to fix the last chapters of NL but they did not meet up to his satisfactions. I know I can't appeal everyone, but at least I can appeal some people (even nerds). So then I got a note from sharkspotter asking if I was on Facebook or Skype. I joined Skype, but keep having trouble logging in (So I just forgot about it and that was it😑) Then I got wound up with practicing soars, making good BJD molds (the dolls I was making out of cloth turned out really shoty. Even though I put wires in the arms, hands, legs, and feet, they wouldn't stay still. It was a disappointment for me.) and trying to keep the house tidy. Another problem is this; I do get enough sleep but when I'm doing my molds for my future dolls, I get distracted with random thoughts and then go on my phone and look at stuff or read it. When I think about it, I feel like lying down and daydreaming about it. I feel tired then. So I walk over to my bed and lay down, cuddling my body pillow, and daydream. But then I pass out. It sucks. I try not to do it, but I let it get the best outta me. It's terrible. I've been trying to keep myself busy, but I kept passing out or just lying there/sitting there and doing nothing but let my thoughts flow all over my head.
A couple days ago, I went to the doctor and had medication for my anxiety given to me (There's history with my test taking. I'll ace assignments, but then I'll bomb on tests. Even if I study, I still do shitty.) So far I haven't had hallucinations, nausea, headaches (I had a little one I felt in my right side, but then it went away), or any crazy shit. I'm hoping this won't endanger me in anyway, it shouldn't. I also learned something about my heart. I have an AV canel (that's in the middle of the heart) with mitral valve insuffiencty/ av canel repair. I got rather nervous at first, but then my doctor told me it's nothing to worry about because only very very very little blood comes out. I still need to be aware of that. Remember when Robin Williams died? I learned people who've had open heart surgery could have depression. I asked my mom about this and she said if the person's health isn't well, then they get depression. The person's health meaning physically. So when that physical performance is lacked, it can eventually lack the brain mentally I think. I think that's how it happens, but I'm fine. I had major heart surgery when I was 6 months old and my heart's been doing fantastic ever since.
I'm feeling normal as usual. I stayed up till 3 in the morning because Hellsing Ultimate is on, yet I'm awake. Fuck, I don't think I know what to do. Soars, dolls, NL story, NL story scenes, NL character studies.
Life is NOT easy, but we just keep pushing through it anyways. That's life and we all need to embrace it that way, even if we hate it.